In April, InnerVoice Studio turns 10 years old.

Wow. I can’t believe InnerVoice Studio is turning 10. I feel like I wrote the ‘InnerVoice is turning 9’ post, like, 5 minutes ago.

That post is particularly memorable to me because for a few months prior to writing that post, I’d been seriously considering closing down this whole project.

At that time, I was feeling really boxed in and claustrophobic. I was feeling pretty lonely in here. I was changing and the market was changing and I just didn’t know which way to turn. I was also having a hard time finding the support I needed—or even identifying what that support even was. For months, things were feeling just not right for me at all.

Like most of us, this happens to me sometimes.

A fellow self-employed friend of mine once told me, ‘you’re an outdoor cat.’ And he was absolutely right.

On one hand, I crave systems and efficiency, stability and safety. Intentionality is the number one value that I live by—always being clear about what I’m doing and why, and how it impacts me and those around me.

On the other hand, I need massive amounts of freedom to let myself wander through the world with curiosity. To explore, to create, to learn, and to grow in an intentionally unbounded way. To go find little trinkets, ideas, and lessons and bring them back to my warm little bed, in my warm little sunbeam, by my warm little fireplace while I wait for someone to scritch my head and give me a treat.

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Anyway, in February of 2024, I was feeling pretty hopelessly stuck. I got on a call with one of my coaches who is also a dear friend. On that call, I gave myself permission to let go of InnerVoice Studio completely.

Get it out of here so I can have some space for something else.

I love to garden, so my coach and I came up with a plan that I would write a letter to InnerVoice in order to turn it into compost with which to fertilize and nourish whatever I might want to grow next in my life.

On February 20, 2024 at 3:27pm, I sat down to write my letter.

I spoke to InnerVoice like an old friend. I thanked it. I talked about all that we did together, how much we accomplished. All the healing and growth we worked through together.

I told it that I was ready to let go of it. But InnerVoice Studio did not want to let go of me.

I wrote:

“We knew this would be temporary—and we stayed enmeshed for longer than either of us expected.

And…we don’t need to stay together for the habit of it. Are you holding on out of habit?

Is your grip stuck? What if you slowly peeled away one finger at a time?”

I asked it over and over what it needed to hear in order to let me go.

InnerVoice Studio was a hard pass on being composted. It absolutely did not want to go into the dirt. It didn’t want to be in the dark. It didn’t want to dissolve.

Ok. Sigh. Where do you want to go?

InnerVoice was willing to go up to the clouds. It agreed to let go of me, as long as it could look down and see me and check in on me from time to time.

A few more pages of negotiations and crafting boundaries and we had a deal.

InnerVoice was gone. I was free. Hallefuckinglujah.

“It’s just me, myself + I now.
And I’m totally ok with that.

2/20/24
4:49pm <3”

(Side note for anyone who is like ‘why is this weirdo talking to her business like a separate person?’: I did not know it at the time, but this is a process called Parts Work, where you separate parts of yourself out and take a look at them individually so you can understand your whole self better. It’s incredibly powerful.

Side side note: In the moment, I literally felt like InnerVoice Studio was it’s own entity, outside of me, that was keeping me pinned down.)

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On February 21st at 9:15am, I wrote in my journal:

“InnerVoice is gone and now the fear is setting in. Who am I without InnerVoice? Without the walls of this container to lean on?

What new gifts + offerings will emerge…and how do I invite them in to do so?

What steps do I need to take to clear out the residue + structures of InnerVoice and transform and transmute them into whatever is next?

Where am I? Where am I going?

There is an inner knowing—a felt sense that this is right.”

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On February 22nd, I wrote:

“I started to work on my new brand. Sunk into frustration + overwhelm.

This new project needs new life. New energy. Fresh new ways of being.

Which means I need to be different.

Can I be different?

What support + tools do I need to operate differently?”

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As a place to play with new ideas and fresh concepts, I started building a new website. Fresh colors, fresh fonts, fresh offerings…open the window and let in the fresh air!

A few days into it, as I was working on the footer, I thought to myself, ‘you know what would look really good on this? The InnerVoice logo.’

And I didn’t feel stuck, or frustrated, or annoyed that InnerVoice popped back in. I actually felt joy.

And this was the epiphany moment.

I created InnerVoice Studio. If I felt boxed in and claustrophobic, it was of my own doing. I was choosing that. And maybe tucking in tight and small was working for a while, but it just wasn’t anymore.

I literally created InnerVoice out of thin air. Which means, I could literally recreate it into anything I wanted it to be.

Woah! I think I just unplugged from the Matrix. There is no spoon! (Honestly, these emails just don’t feel complete without a Matrix reference.)

I felt so much power and clarity. I felt a sense of space and motion…and freedom.

If InnerVoice is my container that I created to do my work in my way then I can reshape it so it fits what I need now to do my best work in the world.

But in order to do that, I’ve got to bring some fresh energy and approaches to understanding myself and getting out of my own way. (As usual.)

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So, I got a bunch of coaching, took some awesome courses, learned a bunch of new skills and tools, and generally reconnected to a feeling of curiosity and aliveness that had been missing. (I’m way over-simplifying this months-long process, but needless to say, I did the hard work and started to feel much more aligned with myself and All The Things.)

I have loads of support now, and I know what to ask for, and when I don’t I trust myself and my team to work together to figure it out.

It was never about InnerVoice as an entity. (Life is full of false flags and sneaky little hiding places. Makes growing and evolving super complicated, tbh. That’s why we all need coaches and helpers.) It was about me reconnecting to MY InnerVoice.

The result was that I decided to double down on InnerVoice Studio as an entity, and here we are a year later.

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While I shared this with some friends and coaches and colleagues, I don’t think I’ve ever really shared this so publicly before. For a long time I felt some shame about it. I guess I felt like if I acknowledged my wavering commitment to InnerVoice, then my clients, the market or the Universe might become wavering in their commitment to me.

But, authenticity is where the real juice of life is, eh?

The more authentic I am here with you all, the more alive and energized and aligned I feel. The less boxed in. The less claustrophobic. And I do better work connecting with and supporting my clients.

A commitment to myself, a commitment to InnerVoice, a commitment to the Universe, and a commitment to all of you are all the same thing, it turns out.

So anyway…here I am.

I’m just a girl…standing in front of 1400 email addresses…saying from the bottom of my complex human heart and soul:

Thank you, thank you, thank you for 10 years of InnerVoice Studio.

It’s truly amazing that this little project has made it 10 whole years.

(Also, how fast did the last 10 years go by? Jeeeeez.)

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The world is changing at the speed of light, and it will definitely require me to make some changes within InnerVoice this coming year. I’m not sure what those will look like, but I promise that will continue to work toward more and more authenticity while continuing to find ways to support people owning their voices and living their best lives.

Meanwhile, let’s party!

To celebrate InnerVoice turning double digits, I’ve got two gifts for you!

🎁 First Gift:

From now through the end of April 2025, I’m offering 50% off all my coaching programs.

• 3-month coaching program, usually $4500. ➡️ Now $2250.

• 6-week coaching program, usually $2700. ➡️ Now $1350.

• Open-ended retainer, usually $800/month. ➡️ Now $400/month.

This is for everyone—current clients who want to renew, past clients who want to return, potential clients who need a sign from the Universe that it’s time to jump in.

All my programs have a few extra weeks built in for vacations, emergencies, life events, etc. Payment plans available.

If you’re interested in getting started or learning more, book a call here.

If you’re a current client, we can talk about it on our next call.

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🎁 Second Gift:

From now through the end of April 2025, I’m opening up my singing lessons book.

(This has not happened since 2023, and I do not know if/when it will happen again. So if you want to sing with me, I would invite you to get in now.)

• 6-week singing program: $1350.

• 3-month singing program: $2200.

Same fine print as above.

If you’re interested in getting started or learning more, book a call here.

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If you’ve read this far, blessings to you. 🙏🏻

This post is way too long, and feels pretty vulnerable, and I’m sure I’ve left some really important details out, and I definitely didn’t edit it for typos or grammar. But, I’m going to hit post before I get all up in my head about it. Practicing the art of being perfectly imperfect and letting that land where it needs to.

And anyway, there are two little woodpeckers on my favorite oak tree outside my window, so I’m going to go see about that.

As ever, I’d love to hear from you. Did this resonate? Feel free to reply to email directly.

If you want to chat, book a call here. (I love when you guys do this, btw.)

If you want to explore how to get some areas of your life back into alignment, book a call here. (I also love when you guys do this, btw.)

Ok…bye! xoxo.